The Spiral of Becoming
Returning to the past doesn't mean you have to repeat it.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about time. Not as a straight line marching forward, but as a spiral, looping and folding in on itself. This past week was a reminder of just how swiftly time moves. And to be honest, as this is a pace of vulnerability, I didn’t carve out as much time as I intended to sit down and write this week’s Love Note.
What I have been doing is leaning into the energy of the snake. The art of shedding, releasing, and renewing. There’s a paradox in this process. I’ve felt myself moving forward, stretching into growth, while simultaneously circling back, revisiting old versions of myself. It’s as if life is nudging me - asking if I recognize the pattern, if I’ll repeat it, or if I’m ready to create something new.
And isn’t that the great question of this year? Will you keep walking the familiar path, even when you know it no longer fits? Or will you step into the version of you that’s waiting to emerge?
Lately, I’ve noticed both versions of myself coexisting. One foot in the past, one reaching toward the future. And beneath it all, a quiet, persistent question: What are you choosing?
I asked this question in a previous Love Note, but it’s worth saying again. There is so much collective growth happening right now, and equally, so much fear. It’s more important than ever to discern - to choose consciously, both for ourselves and for what we allow into our energy field.
So if you’ve been feeling like you’re somehow back where you started, know this: you’re not. You’re just tracing the spiral, meeting an old place from a higher perspective. The journey isn’t linear, and thank God for that, because it means we’re never truly stuck. We’re just in the process of becoming.
Keep spiraling, keep shedding, keep choosing. And know that wherever you are on this loop, you’re not alone. I hope this little Love Note is a reminder for ya.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts. I hope they resonate and I hope they spark an ember within you.
(On a side note - in last week’s Love Note, I mentioned that I would share my Ayahuasca experience next. I didn’t do that, obviously. To be honest, it didn’t feel aligned. Not yet, anyway. I was off pondering spirals. In all seriousness though, I will share that with you all. I’m just not sure when yet. If I do anything whole-heartedly, it has to feel aligned. So when it does, you will know.)
Take care of yourselves, friends.
Love, Light, & Darkness,
Nadia🦋
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